Angie's Weight Loss!!

I lost I lost I lost!!! 1.5kg this week. Now....I cut out all sugar exce;t for a mini binge on Sunday on some lollies my mum left. AND I only walked in the evenings this week. No jogging, although I have to look into doing that again to get back into my couch to 5k program.

I am going to start at the gym this week too and a few of the ladies at work do an exercise class on Thursday with a personal Trainer for $11, so I am going to suss that out too.

I have reached my mini-goal of 78.5 (I am actually 78.4kg) and now can go get my hairr coloured as a reward!!! Any ideas???

Oh and very very very proud of Lauren!! She has only had 2 WW weigh ins and already has her 5kg bookmark! Wha a friggen legend!! *insert "not worthy" bowing smilie here*

Posted by Angie at 8:04 PM | Permalink | Comments

Well I went for my weigh in and am UP 400g. I am really getting a bit depressed about it to be honest. I am really hoping it is muscle!! The positive things I can take from my meeting, was that I am still in the 70s, because it went to 79.9kg (JUST in the 70s) and I am also getting every meeting free.

I am going to not have ANY of my sugar points this week. WIll see if that does anything??

Oh...school is good. Have an ok class. Not much to say about that without boring everyone to tears.

Now....am patiently waiting for Lauren's weigh results!!!

Posted by Angie at 7:08 PM | Permalink | Comments

I am a little nervous about meeting my class. I am prepared, but have been warned of several *treasures* that I will be getting. I am hoping that I can get up at 5am to go walk/jog, be home to shower, spend time with kids and then head off by 7:15am at the latest!

We went for a 45 min family walk this evening (like yesterday). Hadn't been able to do it on THur/Fri because it was raining. I don't mind getting wet, but I am not dragging the kids out in it (even if they have the wet weather thing over the pram).

Now....we have refinanced our mortgage and consolidated our credit cards, so i am hoping the cash flow with my wage and no repayments except for the mortgage will allow me to go to the gym. I did go to Fernwood before I got pg with TJ and found them to be wonderful. I just have to look into it. I feel like I need something different to get rid of the last 8.5kg to goal. I want to do sign up for something that will take me away from the kids more than I am. I would like to do a class or two a week, but they would need to be at 7pm or later, so that Tj is in bed and Charlotte is almost there. I also need to make sure they open early enough. I need to be back home showering at 6ish, so to do a decent workout, I kinda need it opened at 5am. I would only do this every second day as I will be still doing the couch to 5k. And the biggie...it has to be open on SUNDAYS! So I at least have Sat/Sun to use it. kwim?

Will look into it this week!

Posted by Angie at 8:09 PM | Permalink | Comments

* Drink more water yea, did this
* Return to points plan and track ummm didn't track!
* Limit sugar points Hmmm...didn't go over them!
* Continue the couch to 5k plan (hard...am returning to f/t work) Did ok
*Walk every night (weather permitting) with the family Well weather permitting, I did! Thurs/Fri was raining:)
* Lose SOMETHING!!! A kg would be nice!! Don't know...weigh in tomorrow

Posted by Angie at 8:06 PM | Permalink | Comments

I can't believe I haven't updated since Wednesday. Well my first days back were good. No kids, so that always makes school an enjoyable place hehe! I was lucky to meet another new teacher in the office before school even started, so that made it a lot easier for the rest of the day. She has grade 2 and I have grade 6.

I feel incredibly slack about my exercise though. Wed, Thurs and Fri, I did NOTHING! It actually rained THurs-Fri so I will use that as my excuse. We did manage a family walk for an hour yesterday (Sat) arvo and I went for a jog/walk this morning at 6am.

Now....very hapy with this morning's exercise. I managed to jog the fist 20 minutes of the route without a break and then powerwalked 5, then walked at a moderate pace home. Kinda off the couch to 5k plan, but it is working for me! :)

I am hoping to see some results this week. I weighed in on Saturday morning for my HOLU challenge and came out at 79.2kg. Not sure if I will be that on Monday morning for the Suburbs challenge or not.

Seriously though....weighing in at 530pm at WW sucks. I totally believe that what you eat during the day reflects in the scales that evening. My leader doesn't agree though. Speaking of WW, my leader is wanting to do back to back meetings on Tuesday evenings (and Thursdays Tess!!) and was asking me about what I thought of it. Now, I have found out that my staff meetings are on Mondays, so I can do it, but I am going to be reimbursed for sure! I am still only getting every second meeting free, unlike all the other staff members who get ever meeting free. I get there at 430pm to set up, but have decided to leave straight after the meeting now because I have to pay for thesecond meeting. Why should I work LONGER hours than the others and still have to pay every second meeting? I will tell her that I can do this on a Tuesday, but it is taking time away from my kids, so I need to be reimbursed fairly. Do you agree? Anyone got tips on how I can say it?

Righto.... better go, kids are napping and I need some lunch! :)

Posted by Angie at 12:14 PM | Permalink | Comments

Well here I am today at 79.5kgs! I didn't exercise at all today. Too tired this morning and then it was raining this evening, but I should be able to have a day off, shouldn't I?

I am starting to get nervous now as tomorrow I start back at work full time! I don't know if I am nervous because it means that I AM full time, or because it is a new school or what!

I am sitting here watching the Bachelor finale, and it is right at the end, so I am going to finish watching it!
Bye all!

Posted by Angie at 10:58 PM | Permalink | Comments

Well it is official! I weighed in tonight at WW and got a 1.5kg WL , which takes me to...... 79.5kg!!! I am VERY happy with that, but will not reward myself until I get to 78.5kg, as Loj said, at that weight, I would have to eff up big time to tip the scales into the 80s again! :):):)

I have sorted a lot of the stuff out over the last few days and things are looking better again. I don't usually get into such a funk, but this one really got to me. I have to say I am proud that I didn't say EFF IT ALL and go crazy with the food, I stuck to the boring no count plan. I am actually changing back to points for a few weeks. I like the freedom of points better. You only have to compare the sample menus for both and then see the points one looks so much more appetising.

I have been working out twice a day. Mornings by myself, doing the couch to 5k plan and evenings walking with Loj and the kids in the pram (I LOVE my Phil and Ted's E3 pram!!)

Thanks also for everyone who stopped by and let me know they were around! Tess....I will take you up on catching up. Would be cool to meet someone up here. I don't know hardly anyone!!!

Ok...off to finish my WW chicken lasagne!

Posted by Angie at 7:41 PM | Permalink | Comments

I really need to get all this out and I don't expect anyone to read this.

I have had a really hard time of late. Emotionally, I feel like a wreck. I just have so much self hate, disgust and loathe at the moment. I look at myself in the mirror and see this disgusting being that is unattractive, horrible and just plain foul!

I hate the way people expect me to be this positive ray of light all the time. I am always making sure everyone else is happy and feeling ok, when deep inside I am constantly crying and wanting to just crawl into a hole and just hide.

I have two of the most beautiful children in the world and I feel like I am a constant failure to them. I am not patient, calm and perfect for them. I often think that they will look at me when they are older and wish they had someone else as a mother.

It was TJ's first day at daycare today and I have been a total case all weekend, crying and feeling like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. He is my baby and how the hell could anyone love him or care for him as much as I do? He has been there for an hour so far, and I am going to have to call to see how he is going.

I am starting to resent WW. I am working my arse off to lose weigh and it just isn't shifting. I am eating well, doing everything right, exercising daily (and more often than not, TWO TIMES A DAY). I read and hear of people on the program who *cheated* this week, or had a bad week eating wise and STILL lose weight. It is really starting to make me just want to throw it all in because I am doing all the things I should be and NOT LOSING THE WEIGHT!

I was feeling pretty good last week jumping on the scales, expecting a kg loss, only to see I had GAINED that week. Yes, 200g is nothing, but it was NOT a loss...it was a GAIN!

There are so many things going on in my head at the moment. I am such an effing mental case, constantly crying, hating myself that I just don't know what to do anymore. :( I even closed my journal at a site I frequent because I don't want sympathy, I am not looking for attention or *kind words*, it is something I know I have to work out for myself. Until then, I guess I just have to plod on by, hoping that my family will still be here when I am through his spot and on the other side.

Posted by Angie at 8:51 AM | Permalink | Comments

Ok... this is what I am hoping for week 3:
* Drink more water
* Return to points plan and track
* Limit sugar points
* Continue the couch to 5k plan (hard...am returning to f/t work)
*Walk every night (weather permitting) with the family
* Lose SOMETHING!!! A kg would be nice!!

Weighed in this morning for Wk2 results and was 79.8kg. It means...I have maintained from Monday am to Monday am. Just not looking forward to WW tomorrow night! :(

Posted by Angie at 8:48 AM | Permalink | Comments

Well a week today marks my return to the workforce and return to teaching. We moved to Toowoomba last February while I was on maternity leave and I was given a transfer while on leave. SO I will start my new year in a new school (20mins west of Toowoomba) and a grade I haven't taught before (grade 6- in my 10 years of teaching, I have only taught 1-3).

This morning I wanted to see if it was possible to get everything done and still leave at 730am. I was awake at 5am, jogged for 45mins. Got home around 6am. TJ was cooing, made Charlotte's bed (yup she was already up), put a load of washing on and then picked TJ up for a cuddle and changed his nappy and dressed him. Then took him out, gave him his bottle while having a surf on here. Meanwhile, Loj got Charlotte her honey on toast (favourite breakfast so far). I had breakfast (surfing here while eating) I then went and had a shower and got dressed. When I was back, i made TJ's cereal and fed him, while Loj had Charlotte brush her teeth. I managed to dress Charlotte and do her hair, grab her daycare bag and we said bye to daddy and TJ (who would be home on THurs and Fridays anyway) and I took her to daycare. Left there at 7:30am. That would get me to school by or around 8am, which is plenty of prep time as school would start at 9am.

This evening we bundled the kids off for another walk as a family. We left a little later and it was much cooler. Another 45 minutes! I had BETTER be losing weight when I exercise this much!

Posted by Angie at 7:33 PM | Permalink | Comments

Well I got my butt out of bed this morning and headed off for my jog! I can now do over half my walking distance in a jog! Very proud of me.

I did have a little breakdown around lunch, trying to work out what to eat. Had to get TJ fed and then head to the shops to buy food. Not good. Felt like crap and was really upset about my lack of loss last night and wondering if the no count system was for me. I think I am going to stick with it though. One thing I am confused about. Fruit juice is not on the no count list, but if it is PURE fruit juice, isn't that the same as squeezing a few oranges????'''

This evening, I went for a 45 minute walk with Loj and the kids. We want to do that at least 4 times a week as it gives the kids some fresh air and Loj and I a chance to talk. When we are home, we have the kids, tv, computers, dinner, housework etc keeping us busy, so we thought this 45 min is a good recap time.

That is it for now...don't have much else to say :)

Posted by Angie at 7:29 PM | Permalink | Comments

WTF?!?! I am just home from my WW weigh in and I jumped on the scales all excited, only to find out that I am 81 effing kg! That is 0.2kg gain from last week, and 1.2kg gain since I weighed in at home on Monday morning.

I burst into tears when I saw that! I honestly was expecting to see the 70s at WW!! Luckily, it was pre-meeting time as I work there and only my leader and weigher were there. I felt so friggen cheated. WHY THE HELL the GAIN, when I have been exercising DAILY and even twice a day on some days!

I know I need to move on past this. It is just a number, and I should be feeling extremely proud of my fitness level. My leader depends on me to pipe up in the meetings with comments etc., so when it came to "Did anyone have a successful week?" I put my hand up and said that apart from my issues with the scales, I have started jogging and am feeling healthier. Sooooooooooooooooo, that is what I have to focus on this week. Next week there SHOULD be a loss if I keep doing what I am doing, shouldn't there?

Now, Jadey, I know you read my blog. I reported back with my Monday weigh in for the challenge. Should I just weigh myself at home each Monday still (like I have). Maybe it might show no WL next week?!?!?

Ahhhhh who knows?

File it, and move past it!

Posted by Angie at 7:34 PM | Permalink | Comments

This morning was a bit of a struggle to get out of bed because Charlotte had a rough night, so after hitting the snooze button twice, I struggled out. Then I remembered that it was WEIGH IN DAY for te 12 week challenge. I stripped off (I am doing nudey weigh ins at home...more accurate) and jumped on the scales. O.M.G!! The scales said 79.8kg!! I got off and then back on...YUP 79.8kg! I don't know what I was more excite about, being in the 70s again...or the fact that I lost 2.4kg this week!! (I am going to use my scales only for the challenge as my WW weigh in , is in the evening and it really depends on my clothes and what I have eaten or had to drink that determines the results on the scales...kwim?)

Anyway, that gave me the motivation to go for my jog. Wk 3 of couch to 5k. I have managed to jog approximately HALF of my walking route! Very happy with that. 45 mins in total (5350steps, 4.333kms).

Charlotte started full time daycare today. She has only been going on Fridays since March, but as I have to go back to teaching full time in 2 weeks, we wanted to settle her into f/t daycare. She has also moved up to the possum's room, so it is all different for her. She seeme fine. TJ starts Mon-Wed daycare in Charlotte's old room next Monday, so this week is my Mummy/TJ time! I am going to miss that little bundle of love! *sniff*

Anyway, washing needs to be hung out! Hoping that it doesn't rain today until it is all dry! :)

Posted by Angie at 9:28 AM | Permalink | Comments

I went for a brisk walk this morning (giving my body a rest from jogging) for 45 minutes- pedometre says 4407 steps and 3.569km. THEN made Loj and the kids come with me this evening for another walk-another 45 mins! We must have been walking at a faster pace (didn't feel like it) because the ped said 5251 steps and 4.253km?!?! (Maybe this morning was a little quicker than 45 mins??)

I am really excited about jumping on the scales in the morning!!

My Week 2 Commitments:

*Continue couch to 5k program (add some more running)
*Exercise AT LEAST 5 times this week
*Drink more water (Stop taking a sip of coke from Loj's coke)
*Limit sugar points
*Continue no count plan
*Lose a kg??

Posted by Angie at 8:42 PM | Permalink | Comments

My self commitments for week one were:

* stick the no-count menu
* exercise at least 5 times this week
* start the "Couch to 5k" plan!!

Well I can honestly say I stuck to the no count plan. I am finding it quite easy :) I did use all my sugar points, but haven't used the total 21 allowed for the week as yet!

Exercising 5 times a week- well I haven't missed a day! I am really loving getting out and getting fit!

Started the Couch to 5 k- am actually on week 2! I am sooo determined to be able to run the 5 kms!

Posted by Angie at 8:34 PM | Permalink | Comments

Another stormy night here west of Brisvegas. Scares the crap outta Charlotte too. She says "Noisy Clouds" -which is cute!

I got to sleep in til 7am this morning, thanks to my darling husband for getting up with the kiddles (C up at 430am after a crappy night=damn storms). It was storming a treat this morning but had stopped around 8am, so I headed off for my jog :) It feels really good going for it now and I feel cheated if I don't go! :) The pedometre says 5974 steps and 4.838kms. I also did 10 mins on the exercise bike this evening to get my total exercise time up to 1 hr!

I weighed in this morning for my HOLU body challenge and I was 80.6kg!! That is about 2kgs lighter than when I weighed in on Monday for th 12 week challenge! How freaking awesome is that!!!! I can't wait to weigh in on Monday now ! YAY!

Must look into the challenge to see if I have to measure every week too.

Okies...Loj has run me a bath, so I am off to jump in it and read a book I borrowed from the library today (chic lit!!)

Posted by Angie at 8:28 PM | Permalink | Comments

I remember when my Friday nights involved going out, drinking, clubbing etc. Now I am sitting online at 8:30pm, contemplating having a shower and heading to bed! How sad is that?

Both kids are sound asleep in bed (Tj goes to bed at 7 and Charlotte at 7:30) and Loj is on the other computer sending me messages on msn.

We had eaten (yummo sun-dried tomato stuffed chicken breasts and veg), kids bathed and went for a shot 25 minute walk with the kiddles in the pram this evening after a few arvo storms. Ran into the teacher I saw yesterday on a different route (funny, haven't seen him in 7 years and then run into him twice in two days!!) and posted a letter.

Am thinking I might get all my stuff ready to get up at 5am for my jog (if it isn't raining!!) and see how I go!

My 8 week New Year Challenge on OurlittleUniverse starts tomorrow. I have to weigh in first thing and start collecting points. This is a team thing and there are 5 of us together. You add up your exercise points (1 point=15mins) at the end of the week as well as WL points (1pound=1point...yup it is an American site). THen we combine our group points and compete against other teams. No prizes, just something for fun. Between that and the 12 week challenge (oh and WW), I am soooo going to be kept on track! I get so damn competitive, I tells ya! hehe

Soooo it also means that I weigh in 3 times a week! :) Saturdays for the 8 week challenge, Mondays for the 12 week challenge and Tuesday evenings at WW. I KNOW you shouldn't weigh yourself all the time, but it really keeps me on track too! (and my scales are 1kg heavier than WW's ones!)

Ok...rambled enough...might check out some blogs and head to bed ;)

Posted by Angie at 8:32 PM | Permalink | Comments

I didn't blog yesterday, but I totally revamped my blog! Still so many things I want to add to it!

Well, I got to sleep in and was going to have the day off from exercise, but it got all cool around 5pm (had an almighty storm last night) so i took myself out for my jog/walk. Did pretty well, ran into a teacher I used to teach with 7 years ago in my country service. He is a PE teacher and is now up the coast, but was in Toowoomba because his wife's family is here. He gave me some tips on jogging- one of which being I shouldn't wear tracksuit pants in summer. hehe. I would wear shorts more often, but they ride up my inner thigh and it isn't a good look....and is not something I want to be worrying about everytime I am exercising. That circuit is 4.38km.

This morning I did my *small circuit* -my pedometre says it is 2.9kms, walking it mostly just so I give my body recovery time. I might jump on the exercise bike tonight too!!

Posted by Angie at 10:08 AM | Permalink | Comments

The ABCs of Me Stolen from Jadey!!

A is for age: 32!!!
B is for booze of choice: Vodka
C is for career: Primary school teacher
D is for your dad's name: Lloyd
E is for essential items to bring to a party: Loj and water
F is for favorite song at the moment: Robbie Williams (all from new cd)
G is for favorite game: Pictionary!! (and yatzee)
H is for hometown: Where I was born? Wagga Wagga (Air Force brat here, so throw in Newcastle, Canberra and Brisbane for good measure)
I is for instruments you play: I play a mean triangle!!
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry
K is for kids: Charlotte (25months old) Trent (or TJ- 7.5months old)
L is for living arrangements: With Loj (DH), Charlotte and Trent
M is for mom's name: Rhonda
N is for name of your 1st crush: Gavin in kindergarden
O is for overnight hospital stays: 5 (one for tonsils when I was 3, one for suspected anpendacitis when 15, 2 for having the 2 kids (c-sections, was in for 5 days each) and just recently for a killer migraine (see x-ray below)
P is for phobias: hmmm..used to be spiders, but I am getting better
Q is for quotes you like: Whatever!!
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: 5 yrs....not with my hubby though, we have only been together 4.5 (married 3)
S is for sexual preference: Straight-married
T is for True Love: I married him!
U is for underwear: Need new stuff...my others are getting too big
V is for vegetable you love: Carrot- love them cooked ANY way (or raw)
W is for weekend plans: Nothing -can't afford it. Probably running!
X is for x-rays you've had: Do ultrasounds count?? Oh and I had a catscan a few months back!!
Y is for yummy food u make: Pasta!!!
.Z is for zodiac sign: Scorpio

Posted by Angie at 8:14 PM | Permalink | Comments

Well I must have done something right this week!!! :) :) :) (copie from my weigh in thread on livinginthesuburbs!!!)

SW (Starting Weight) 102.4kg
CW (Current Weight) 80.8kgGW
(Goal Weight) 71kg
Weigh in Day: Tuesday evening

Well I lost 1.3kg today!! YAY ME! I have done the no count program this week and stepped up my exercise (starting to run- well ok, uncoordinately jog).
I KNOW I shouldn't weigh myself at home, but have and my new scales weigh HEAVIER than WW ones!! That is positive too.
Soooo a total of 21.6kg (ticker seems to only go in whole kgs!!) so far!
9.8kg til GOAL! :D

Posted by Angie at 8:04 PM | Permalink | Comments

Well I went again this morning and managed to throw in 2 more jogging spurts. When I was cooling down, my thighs and butt was sore and Loj told me I should give my body a rest and have tomorrow off. Hmmm I know the Couch to 5k plan suggests only doing it 3 times a week, for week one, but I feel like I shouldn't be on week one as I am not starting from the couch. KWIM?

I have been walking and exercising for 6 months, so felt this was the next step. Sooooooooooo...if I were to rest tomorrow, does that mean, give the jogging a rest or ALL exercise??

I have my first weigh in tonight in a fortnight! As last Tuesday was a public holliday, I *should* have gone to a different meeting, but my home scales kinda showed that I had put on a stack!! So I ....errrr...was *out of town*! hehe

I should have a loss this week though-even if minimal from my last weigh in (thanks to the gain over Christmas). Just have to make sure I am ready.

Will be back tonight to post results! Have to run now as Charlotte is emptying her potty into the toilet and is making a lot of noise in there! :D

Posted by Angie at 11:12 AM | Permalink | Comments

Well I set my alarm for 5am this morning and got up with intentions of starting the Couch to 5k program.

I did my usual walking route which takes 1 hour when I walk it, but this morning I started some intermitant jogging. I was going to do what the program suggested with 60sec jog, 90sec walk, but because my watch is not the best for that, I did it on distance...not sure how long each spout was though. I managed 4 lots in there and will do that for this week and see if I can stretch it out next week.

Soooooooooooo...my 1hr route only took me 50 minutes! I want to keep this up as I go back to teaching fulltime (after having a year off for materity leave) on Jan 19. Totally new school and new grade!

I also jumped on the scales this morning to weigh in (thought I would do that for the livinginthesuburbs challenge, rather than my usual tues evening weigh in at WW) and I was 82.2kg. So it looks like I am back to where I was before the Christmas pigouts! hehe

Ok...will be back laster with my measurements!

Posted by Angie at 8:26 AM | Permalink | Comments